Starting a new chapter!

On Monday, I’ll officially be starting my new job, and a new chapter in my life. And, in just seven weeks, Sven and I will be getting married! I’m so excited (and a little overwhelmed) with all these big changes, but something about it just feels so right! Obviously, my brain is sort of cluttered right now with excitement, a bit of anxiety, and a lot of to-do’s…but here are ten thoughts I’d like to document!

  1. I am nervous, even a little insecure, about starting this new job. I need to remember to believe in myself. (I CAN!!) They hired me for a reason!
  2. I feel vindicated that, despite the obstacles and challenges I’ve faced, I am able to emerge right where I want to be, right now.
  3. Be grateful. No entitlement, only appreciation.
  4. I shouldn’t let my ego or pride get in my own way.
  5. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.
  6. I’m going to take my “baggage” with me to my new job, just like anyone takes baggage from one relationship into the next. I need to try to be aware of what triggers this “baggage” and also try and release it as I develop more confidence in the new role.
  7. I can do anything as long as I don’t get in my own way.
  8. The universe is working in my favor, as long as I just let it.
  9. Sven is the BEST, most supportive partner in the whole world. I’m the luckiest girl in the world to have him on my “team,” and to be able to call him my husband in less than two months!!!
  10. For the first time in a long time (honestly, maybe the first time ever), I feel genuinely, truly, completely happy about every aspect of my life. Perhaps I am the happiest I’ve ever been!

Sven takes the plunge…literally!

Sven just returned home from five days (yes FIVE days) in Vegas for his epic bachelor party. He was there with his brother and four buddies who came all the way from Sweden to celebrate his last hurrah! They’re such great guys that they all chipped in so that Sven could literally take the plunge before taking the plunge: they arranged for him to jump off of the Stratosphere building! That’s a free fall from 108 stories – or 855 feet – or 260 meters!

While there may be other videos of the trip that are prohibited for viewing (I saw them, haha ;) ), this video of Sven jumping off the Stratosphere is a must-see. Pretty awesome.

Sven on his way back to earth as the boys watch from below!

Compared to that, marrying me should be a piece of cake!

Have you ever been in love? Poll update!

A couple weeks ago, I posted a “love poll.” If you haven’t participated yet, go ahead and answer (anonymously) HERE. You can also take the poll on my blog’s Facebook page. There are only three questions!

POLL: Have you ever been in love?

As of right now, here’s how you’ve responded:

100% of respondents have been in love <3

40% have been in love only once (including me!)

40% have been in love twice

20% have been in love four or more times (wow!)

Coincidentally, I was watching the Today Show last week, and Kathie Lee and Hoda asked the exact same question. According to studies, the average person has been in love THREE times!

But no one has answered this for me yet :( : How do you know when you’re in love? What are some of the telltale signs?! Let me know in the comments below!

I’ll tell you one of mine: I knew I was in love as soon as I realized that I couldn’t possibly imagine any other guy being as wonderful as Sven. :)

I believe in energy!

Yesterday, I shared my big news and reflected upon my tenth and final personal “mantra.” In case you missed it, you can read about it here, but today I am reflecting upon the process it took me to become this happy, complete, and ready to start the next phase of my life.

So what’s this about believing in energy? If you know me, you know that I’m not at all religious or spiritual, but I am open-minded. I had heard of (and even tried) energy healers in the past, but never felt it was for me. I’d read books on Zen Buddhism, more for educational than spiritual purposes, and learned about the concept of the universe as a living, breathing organism…but I couldn’t really wrap my head around that, either!

However, I do believe in energy. Specifically, I believe in the ability to control my energy as a means of self-improvement, which has much greater implications beyond my self. After all, energy is a real thing – even if we can’t see it, we can feel it. While on this journey to change my life over the past several months, one key thing I learned was how energy affected everything: my moods, my relationships with people, my happiness, and ultimately even my success. Most people live their lives knowing that energy exists, but without being truly aware of it. It wasn’t until I became aware of my energy that could I take real, concrete steps towards controlling it (which is really empowering, by the way)!

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Final Monday Mantra…AND the big announcement!

Eleven weeks ago, I wrote a list of my own “Ten Personal Commandments” to help guide me through a difficult time in my life. I decided to call them “mantras” instead of “commandments” because I recognized their value if I was able to overcome the effort it took to apply them – if I reminded myself of these mantras repeatedly, then perhaps they would become more effortless!

Since making that list, I’ve been focusing on one mantra per week, trying to apply it to my daily life while continuing to follow through with the mantras that preceded it. In doing so, I had varying levels of success…hey, I wouldn’t have made the list if I thought it was going to be easy! The goal? To gradually (emphasis on the gradually) change negative habits and thought processes in order to evolve into a happier, more balanced person – and ultimately, a better person, friend, daughter, wife(!).

So how’s my progress been in the past eleven weeks? Honestly, it has been phenomenal and beyond my wildest expectations. I’ve realized that timing is rarely a coincidence. I started this blog nearly seven months ago because I wanted to change my life, and I somehow felt that this blog would be a catalyst for that. I wrote my “Ten Personal Mantras” list eleven weeks ago because I wanted to hold myself accountable for the changes I was trying to make (and I probably wouldn’t have done that without my blog as a platform)! I felt self-indulgent at times, writing about myself so selfishly as if you people reading this would care about my personal agenda. But, if I can inspire one person to make a similar investment in themselves as I have, then hopefully it was worth reading. If it were not for this process, I don’t believe I would be sharing this big announcement with you today.

Okay…so what is the big announcement?!

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The boys are in Sin City!

Sven is in Vegas for his bachelor party! He’s there with his brother John, who is visiting from Sweden, and five or six other guys from Sweden…the Swedes are taking over Vegas!!!

While I’m going to miss Sven terribly – he’s gone for five days! – I know he’s going to have an amazing time with his boys. How awesome that they flew all the way to Vegas from Sweden just to tear it up with him! (Though I’m sure they had some other motivation to leave Sweden behind for a few days!)

No, I’m not worried about what kind of antics they will be up to. Some people have been telling me, “Oh, I’m so sorry…” or “I can’t believe you let him go to Vegas!” or “Don’t worry, we’ll party it up just as hard this weekend so you can get it off your mind.” I have to say…I TRUST Sven, and I am not losing any sleep over the idea of him being there. I’m actually so happy that he has this break to enjoy some “wolfpack time” with his best dudes!!! He deserves it!

As for me, I am enjoying being alone at home. Although I miss Sven, I love me a bit of solitude. I love not having to go to bed as early as Sven always likes to…I’m like a little kid that stays up all night when the parents are away! I’m a night owl, and I find that I’m able to concentrate on things I need to get done when it’s quiet late at night (like writing all my bridal shower thank you cards!). And the apartment stays so clean when Sven is away. ;)

Plus, I’ve been very preoccupied with my big announcement…which I think will come on Monday or Tuesday next week! Stay tuned!

Have a great weekend everyone!

 

My bridal shower!

Me with Leigh, bridal shower planner extraordinaire

My bridal shower was this past weekend, and it was a truly memorable, amazing, once-in-a-lifetime experience! My mom and my bridesmaids made me feel so loved with how thoughtfully executed it was, and I felt so lucky to have so many of my closest friends and family attend. It was a beautiful afternoon I’ll never forget!

I’m not one to do things the traditional way, so I actually don’t have a maid of honor. I was never comfortable with the idea of bestowing upon one person the responsibility/burden of coordinating all of those fun things that go along with getting married. Like organizing a bridal shower. So instead, I gave each of my five bridesmaids one “thing” to help me with, to equally share the love/burden. (I totally have issues with asking for help. I know my friends don’t see it as a burden, but I can’t help but feel that way!)

Anyway, luckily for me, I knew my lovely bridesmaid Leigh would be the perfect person for the task of organizing my shower. And you’ll see why in the pictures!

the best (and most beautiful) bridesmaids a girl could ever ask for

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Blood, Sugar, Baby…

I initially left the first comma off the title of this post, until I realized it might seem like I was writing about diabetes. In actuality, I’m posting about the unfuckingbelievable Red Hot Chili Peppers concert we went to last Saturday. It was seriously the best concert I have ever been to. I know that’s not saying much, since I can probably count the number of concerts I’ve been to on one hand, but these guys know how to put on a show. The two-hour concert felt like 45 minutes! (Note to self: Go to more concerts.)

And, to be honest, they didn’t even play some of my favorites, like “Love Rollercoaster” and “Catholic School Girls Rule.” ;) Luckily, they have so many hits that I was not disappointed! “Blood Sugar Sex Magik” and “Give it Away” were high-intensity favorites, though I have to admit I almost like some of their darker music better…who couldn’t feel the vibes during their lighter-waving rendition of “Californication”?

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TWO months to go…and a BIG announcement coming soon!!!

Sven makes an appearance at my bridal shower on Sunday!

As of yesterday, it’s now only two months – EIGHT WEEKS – until the big day!!! Life has been absolutely insane for the past couple of weeks, not only because of the various fun events I’ve mentioned recently, but also because I’ve been busy working on something else…which I will announce in a few days!

I’m not just teasing you to build suspense (of course, that is one reason ;) ), but also to explain the lack of writing that is likely to occur this week. Even though I keep an inventory of posts, I still like to edit those posts the night before, and I won’t even have time for that! But, I am very excited to share my announcement with you soon!

On another note, I’m continuing my monthly countdown wedding vendor recommendation. This month, I’m recommending MOO, a printing company for stickers, cards, and other stationery. I can’t clearly recall, but I believe I discovered them through a good old Google search. I love fun, new, innovative companies, and I’m a sucker for free stuff (who isn’t?) – they offer a completely free (no shipping!) sample pack of all their products. Once I got that little bundle of perfectly printed goodness, I was hooked. I wanted to try everything!

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Swedes, Chili Peppers, Shower…oh my!!!

What an incredible weekend we’ve had! It’s been extremely busy, but I’ll do a quick summary today and share more details later in the week. A picture is worth a thousand words anyway, so here are some pictures to summarize all the fun!

On Friday, Sven’s little brother came to town all the way from Sweden! Here’s the welcome shot we sent to Sven to let him know his little brother made to the city safely!

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BIG WEEKEND!

Happy Friday! Sven and I have a big weekend this weekend, which I’ll be sure to post all the details of next week!

  • Today, Sven’s little brother John is coming to visit us for the very first time since Sven moved here five years ago. We’re so excited to have him here! I know that Sven has some fun and exciting plans for his little bro, who is experiencing his first ten days of “freedom” in a longggg time – he has two little girls back home in Sweden!
Sven’s little brother is leaving his family for ten days…Lovely ladies, he’s in Sven’s hands now, for better or for worse!
  • Tomorrow, we’re going to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers in concert!!! I am such a 90′s rock fan, and RHCP are one my all-time favorites. And the reviews for the tour have been amazing…can’t wait!
  • Sunday is my bridal shower! I don’t know where it is, but I’m sure it’s going to be beautiful and lots of fun! It’s my first “official” wedding-related party, and I can’t believe it’s already here! I don’t think I’ve had a real party thrown in my honor since my high school graduation/18th birthday party…so I’m very much looking forward to being “showered!!”
Have a great weekend!

What happens in Charleston…stays in Charleston

My friends and I went to Charleston, South Carolina, this past weekend for our friend Brooke’s bachelorette party. She’s a fellow bride-to-be who is taking the plunge just one month from today! Charleston is definitely a random place for a bachelorette weekend, but it was a perfect mix of sun (the weather was amazing!), fun, and girl-bonding!

The seven of us rented a house on Folly Beach, about 30 minutes outside of downtown Charleston. It was a quaint little beach town with a young college scene. My favorite quote was when a 20-year old guy sitting next to us on the beach started talking to us, and his opening line was:

“We started talking to a group of girls over there, and it turns out they were TWENTY-NINE!”

Us: “Um, we’re twenty-nine.”

“Damn, you guys are old, too! We thought we picked a good spot here on the beach, in between all these girls, but turns out y’all are all old.”

(He at least told us we didn’t look twenty-nine!)

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POLL: Have you ever been in love?

The one-year anniversary of Sven’s and my engagement was the other day – it was a day filled with so much happiness and love, and just thinking about it got me even more excited for our wedding – a big, blowout celebration of our love! So, suffice it to say I’ve had LOVE LOVE LOVE on the brain this week!

Sven is my one and only love, but of course, I know that most people fall in love more than once. I’m curious to know how many of you have been in love, and how many times. So, please take my (anonymous) love poll! I’ll share results next week!

 

Final question: How do you know when you’re in love? Post your answers in the comment box below!

More is never enough!

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

This week’s mantra is:

#9. Identify what I want instead of simply wanting “more.”

This is a Sven-inspired mantra that I’ve been enlightened by recently. I wrote about this back in January in a post called “Sven was right.” However, just because I’ve had the realization that “more” is not a sustainable goal (not one that will make me happy, anyway), doesn’t mean that it’s easy for me to accept. But, it does help me focus on identifying what it is I really want. In the past three months since I first reflected on wanting “more,” I’ve made some strides in being happy with what I have. Since I think I did a pretty good job of explaining it the first time, I’ll simply excerpt it here:

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A way to meet new people that you may not have tried…

I have a lot of single friends – both girls and guys – and they often seem so jaded and tired of being set up on blind dates, going to bars, or getting picked up at the gym. When my friends ask me where or how to meet guys, I ask them what their interests are. I happen to think that it’s much easier – and more natural – to meet someone over something you both enjoy, whether it’s playing soccer, rock climbing, or being part of a book club. Sven and I bonded while travelling – we both enjoyed backpacking adventurously…and lazing on gorgeous beaches.

To be honest, my friends don’t really like it when I suggest this approach. It seems counterintuitive to try to meet someone else while doing something for yourself. An active attempt at meeting someone (i.e. going to a bar) at least feels more productive, plus there’s the added benefit of alcohol. But here’s why I’m a proponent of getting active to get yourself out there:

  • You’ll meet people in their “natural habitat,” having fun doing the things they enjoy – including yourself. No added pressure of trying to impress on a date or at a bar.
  • You’re doing something for yourself, isn’t that enough of a reason? Being happier will make you more attractive regardless of where you meet someone.
  • You’ll at least make new friends!

In fact, studies show that each common interest between two people boosts the chances of a lasting relationship, and brings a 2% increase in life satisfaction. I happen to think that the more interests you have, the more appealing you are. That’s simply based on the laws of probability: the more interests you have, the more likely you are to bond with someone over one of them.

So, what’s my point? Everyone has interests, it’s just that some people don’t act on them – it takes too much effort, too busy with work, etc. No more excuses! It’s spring…what better time to go to out and DO SOMETHING! What do you have to lose?

Seize the Day!

My friend Erin and I saw the incredible new musical NEWSIES on Broadway last night. We bought tickets before the show even opened and have been dying to see it ever since. It was amazing! A big draw is that the show features FOUR of our favorite dancers from the show/obsession So You Think You Can Dance: Evan Kasprzak, Jess LeProtto, Thayne Jasperson, and of course, the unbelievable Alex Wong!

If you can, you have to see it. Especially if you love watching male dancers. Lots of them. Incredible!!! I will gladly see it again for anyone that wants to go!

After the jump, there’s a preview of one of our favorite numbers from the show, “Seize the Day.” (Side note: Erin and I both were newsies in high-school dance productions of “Seize the Day,” so there was also a nostalgia element for us to see the show!)

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I’M SIX MONTHS OLD!!

Congratulations to me! My blog is officially six months old today!! When I first started this blog, the goal was to last at least a year, and I can’t believe I’m already at the halfway point! (Sven gave me at least three months max, and now I’m double that, ha!)

I started this blog as a vehicle to improve my life, and it’s unbelievable to me how much my life has actually turned around in the past six months. The fact that it all started with this blog is no coincidence, but I had no idea how much my life and overall happiness would actually change.

If you haven’t read about why I started this blog in the first place, you can check out my very first blog post (from October 24, 2011)! It was then that I was first beginning to realize I needed to take control of my life if I wanted to change it. I never in a million years thought I would ever become a blogger, but when the idea for this exact blog popped into my head, it literally felt like a lightning bolt of energy passed through my body. Even then, I had a feeling then it would be the start of something big.

It’s not that I have incredibly high aspirations or goals for this blog, like going viral or being in the Technorati Top 100, but I think I’m still at the beginning phases of the journey this blog is taking me on, and if you enjoy it, you readers can come along right with me! I know I’m still enjoying the ride!

After the jump, some reflections on my blog over the past six months, and some fun stats!

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The relaxation/laziness paradox

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

I actually laughed out loud when I checked my list of “ten personal mantras” to see what I had in store for this week:

There is a difference between relaxation and being lazy.

It’s eerie to consider that it’s probably it’s no coincidence that I wrote this list eight weeks ago, and this mantra comes up during the week when I’ve been grappling with this the most. What is the difference between relaxation and laziness?

If I’ve been working hard, feel stressed out, and I tell myself I deserve to relax, I’ll lay on the couch, catch up on my DVR, and sleep until noon. But I know that I also lack motivation at times. (If you know me, I know this can be hard to believe, but I do struggle with motivation often.) Am I actually laying on the couch and sleeping in because I’m not motivated to do things that would be a better use of my time? Then, I feel guilty for being lazy, for not working out or doing errands with my free time instead. I feel unproductive, and then the “relaxation” becomes counterproductive because I’m tense and anxious over my lack of productivity. For me, the relationship between relaxation and laziness is a paradox!

If I go on vacation, I can relax. I could lay on a beach for a week and barely move. That is relaxing! So is it something about being home, or in New York City, where there are so many to-dos constantly looming that it’s impossible to actually relax without feeling lazy?

My goal is to work on this, figure it out, and be better about both being able to relax and to not be lazy. So, I hereby define a few parameters for each:

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Ending the week with cuteness!

I saw this photo online recently, and it had me cracking up. I emailed it to Sven and asked, “Can you guess which one is you and which one is me?”

He, of course, said, “I’m the big white kitty.” You see, Sven often likes to sit at the end of our couch, but he always leaves about six inches of space between himself and the armrest. When I come to sit on the couch, I always like to squeeze myself into that six-inch space and nestle myself right in there, between the armrest and Sven! So cozy!

Sven will ask, “What about the other 70 inches of couch you have available?” But that’s no fun! It’s fun to snuggle with my big white kitty! :)

Happy Friday, everyone, and hope you enjoyed the cuteness for today!

A simple little trick to boost any relationship

I never like to tell people, “Hey, try this, it works!” especially when it comes to relationships. Everybody is different and every relationship has its own unique dynamic. However, I recently discovered a simple little “trick” that has made Sven and me much happier, so I’m sharing it with you all and feeling pretty confident that it will work for you, too!

Basically, the trick is a bicker-stopper. It works especially well for mini-bickering. You know, those little things you bicker over that have no impact on your relationship except to make you feel annoyed for five minutes until you forget about it? Example:

Sven is in the kitchen making himself coffee. I change the channel on the TV.

“Hey!” he says. “I was watching House!”

“You’re in the kitchen, you can’t even see the TV!” I reply. “How was I supposed to know? And haven’t we already seen this episode already?” (Sven has a major House addiction.)

“You always do this!”

“What do you mean I always do this? We always watch House!”

“Fine, change it, just no Dance Moms or food shows.”

“Oh, so we can watch House reruns five times, but I can’t watch the new episode of Top Chef I recorded?!”

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How do you get over the hump? (PART 2!)

Happy Wednesday!

Not only is it Hump Day, but it’s also Question of the Week Day, and because I was really looking forward to crossing the hump this week, I decided to revisit my very first Question of the Week:

How do you get over the hump?

If you haven’t read my previous post, you can read it here, but the gist is how do couples cross that “hump” from dating territory into relationship territory? I was inspired by a friend who asked me this question, and I hoped to have some real answers for her the next time I saw her! But her question really stumped me; I’m no expert in hump-crossage.

The only advice I could offer was to take the pressure off the idea of crossing the hump, and then maybe it would happen naturally. I find that most people that are dating and still in that uncertain “not sure where I stand” territory are so guarded and focused on what they’re not getting out of the relationship that what they are getting out of it ceases to become fun. And isn’t the whole point of dating to have fun?

But, in a quest for more concrete answers, I decided to take to the streets and ask some experts for their hump-crossing tips! (Okay, I asked friends and friends of friends…same difference.) Answers after the hump (sorry, I couldn’t resist):

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Being me

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

Today’s Monday Mantra is:

#7. Be myself. Not what I think I should be, not what I think others think I should be, not even what I want to be even though I know it’s really not me.

This is not the most challenging mantra, but I think it’s the most important. It sounds so cliche to say “Be true to yourself,” yet I’ve found myself to be the most happy and successful when I’m being true to myself…and the most unhappy and miserable when I’ve lost myself. In fact, knowing myself, understanding myself, and acting true to myself were, in my opinion, requirements for being able to meet Sven, understand how perfect he was for me, be open to his love, and have a healthy relationship with him. I’ve actually blogged about this here!

I, like most people, tend to lose myself when I’m influenced by external forces. To break it down:

What I think I should be

For example, I think I should spend more time volunteering for charities. I should dedicate myself to a cause. I admire people that dedicate themselves to causes they strongly believe in. Truthfully, I am happy contributing with simply my wallet if it is a cause that I or one of my friends supports. Maybe one day, I will find a cause near to my heart that I will want to devote some time to, but I shouldn’t just volunteer because I think I should.

What/how I think others think I should be

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Failure!!!

So much for my anger management attempt this week. I kicked off the beginning of the week with the sixth of my ten personal mantras: Before getting angry, I will stop and try to put myself in the other person’s shoes. 

When I found myself in a situation where that didn’t work, I included an addendum to the mantra: No dumping on people. Let it go.

Of course, this week presented me with more anger than I could even deal with! I got angry, really angry. At my friend. At my mother. At my family. I dumped on at least five people about it. I lost sleep over it. I could not let it go. FAIL FAIL FAIL!

Sneak preview to next week’s personal mantra, one of my personal favorites:

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Do you dump on people?

I dump on people more often than I’d like to admit, especially on Sven. Not literally (um, gross) but I dump, vent, release – whatever you want to call it – my emotional frustrations on him all the time. It’s actually a point of contention between us: he repeatedly tells me that he hates it when I vent to him, just for the sake of venting, yet I keep doing it, not out of spite, but out of complete lack of self-control!

The irony is that I made a conscious choice to not vent on this blog. I’ve even had people suggest to me that I should air more of my grievances on this blog, you know, to make me more relatable. But actually, I choose not to because I want this blog to be a positive and creative avenue, I don’t want to seem self-absorbed, and most of all I don’t want to burden my readers with my crap. So, why don’t I afford Sven that same courtesy in our every day lives? I should!

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My Sweden Faves!

A lot of people have been asking me lately what Sweden is like. What’s the weather like? Are there lots of trees and rolling hills? Are the people all really beautiful? Well, the weather is unpredictable, but when it is sunny, all of the beautiful people come outside to play (even if it’s only 45 degrees!). The best part is the clean, crisp air. I think breathing it in adds a few years to my life when I visit! (Whenever I come back to NYC, my sense of smell is heightened – not in a good way – everything smells SO bad here!) And the food – amazing seafood – my faves are the shrimp, crayfish (kräftor), and salmon (lax). Mmm…

So, instead of rambling on, I’ll stimulate the senses my sharing a few of my favorite Sweden photos! I bet these pictures will make you want to come to Sweden! (And if you are coming for our wedding, even more excited to come!)

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Patience and empathy are not my things…

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

Today’s Monday Mantra is:

Before getting angry, I will stop and try to put myself in the other person’s shoes.

This one is really, really hard for me. I have a fiery temper, I’m impatient, and when I’m mad, it’s really difficult for me to just stop and breathe. In fact, before I even started this exercise of employing my “ten personal mantras,” one of my mottos was “I don’t understand people…”

And I’d be lying if I said I didn’t still say that all the time. Sometimes, I really just don’t understand people!! I have tried in the past to be better at trying to put myself in another person’s shoes: The Benefit of the Doubt, if not only for my sanity. It does feel much better to just let things go than to harp over things that I can’t control.

It’s like that saying by philosophical writer G.K. Chesterson:

“It is easy to be heavy, hard to be light.”

So true. For me anyway. I’ve always found it much easier to get angry, fight, and be confrontational than to empathize and have a rational discussion about why I was angry – to try to have the other person empathize with me, too. It’s much easier for me to let my negative thoughts spiral out of control than to force myself to stop.

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THREE months to go! …and another vendor recommendation!

photo credit: Alicia Swedenborg
Alicia Swedenborg

Just THREE months to go until the big day! Now it finally feels like the wedding is actually happening in the near future! Last week, Sven and I went to Stockholm to finalize our wedding plans (and hang out with his wonderful family!). Meeting our amazing and talented vendors made the whole process feel so real and got us SO pumped for the big day!!

Gone wedding planning in Stockholm!

As part of the monthly countdown to our wedding, I’m including a vendor recommendation. This month’s vendor hardly needs any recommendations, since she is one of Sweden’s most in-demand photographers, but she is one of the sweetest, friendliest, and warmest people I have met in my entire life. She is…Alicia Swedenborg! Continue reading

Why do we let others determine our worth?

This week’s “Question of the Week” opens up a huge can of worms (in my own head anyway), and I don’t really have a definitive answer for it. All I have are more questions! I’m really interested in hearing your thoughts and opinions on how you interpret these questions.

The “inspiration” behind this question comes from the realization that successful people – whether it’s people in successful relationships or careers, even friendships – are fully aware, confident, and unwavering of their own value and self-worth. Yet how often do amazing people get down on themselves when some jerk of a guy dumps them, or when they don’t get the dream job they interviewed for? Everyone else around them recognizes their value, but they’ve let the guy or the job or whoever make them feel inadequate. I have been a victim of this.

It’s hard to not feel sorry for yourself in these less-than-ideal circumstances, but the dangerous part is when we start to believe that we are actually worth less because of it. When you’re down for the count, it’s very easy to focus on what we were not – why wasn’t I good enough? – instead of being grateful for what you are, and looking forward to the guy or job opportunity that will recognize your worth, instead of determining it for you.

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Swedish-American Wedding Planning Update!

Sven and I are back in New York after an amazing trip to Stockholm. We met our wedding planners Jill and Camilla, our photographer Alicia, our priest Gunnar, and our DJ Mike – they are all incredible! We’re so excited and happy about how our big day is coming together. Just about three months to go, and we’ve finally accomplished the following while in Sweden:

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Ten things I’m grateful for

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

Today’s Monday Mantra is:

Be grateful. Be genuine. Be genuinely grateful.

This one is easy! And fun! Unlike last week’s mantra, stopping spirals of negative thought, which is incredibly difficult and unnatural for me, being genuinely grateful is something I have no problem doing. I should just do it more. Hey, maybe it’s something I can try to do when I’m trying to stop negative spirals of thought!

Being grateful. Ten things I’m grateful for:

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Gone Wedding Planning in Sweden!!!

I’m in Stockholm! I can’t believe it’s finally here – the final wedding planning trip before our actual wedding in July. We have had this trip booked for nine months, so whenever anyone would ask us how the planning was going, we would say it wasn’t really going anywhere until the end of March!

This might sound a little crazy/weird, but today was one of the most fun days of my life. I finally met my wedding planner Jill LaFleur, her assistant and floral designer Camilla Svensson Burns (who happens to be Swedish!), and the amazing bundle of joy who brought us all together, my photographer Alicia Swedenborg.

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These women are all such incredibly talented, warm, and genuine people, that it’s no surprise why they are some of the best in the industry. You have no idea how blessed and lucky I feel to have them taking care of my big day. I truly feel like I hit the jackpot having this “All Star” team working with me, not only for their exceptional talent but also for their big hearts. I truly believe we were all brought together for a reason – other than to work on my wedding – to bring a little extra something special in each others’ lives!

These ladies are not just vendors, they are going to be dear friends of mine for a very long time!! (Especially with Alicia moving to New York soon!)

Today was a day I’ll never forget: pure joy in wedding planning with a fun, talented group of women who actually make me feel like they care about the wedding as much as I do! Thanks to them, I was able to finally put away a lot of the heaviness that was preventing me from fully enjoying and indulging in the wedding planning. I never knew it could be this fun!

Do you need a little inspiration?

I recently had lunch with a woman I had met through work. I’ll call her “Jane.” Jane is a successful lawyer who leads the hedge fund practice at a large New York City financial services law firm. Jane and I keep in touch occasionally, but when I had lunch with her a few weeks ago, I wasn’t expecting to hear perhaps the most awe-inspiring story I had ever heard, probably in my life. So naturally, I have to share it with all of you.

Hope it makes your day and inspires you to be a little better, less selfish, more hardworking, and more grateful!

From Hamburger University to Yale Law

Jane grew up in a New Jersey suburb, the oldest of seven children. Her parents didn’t make a lot of money, so during high school, she worked at McDonald’s to supplement the family income. Despite this, she graduated valedictorian of her high school class and received a full college scholarship. However, by this time, she had already started earning more money than her father by working the night shifts at McDonald’s. So, her parents asked her to defer her college education for a year in order to save up more money for the family.

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Stopping negative spirals of thought

Stop the negative spirals!!

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal mantras.”

Today’s Monday Mantra is:

Stop negative spirals of thought. Sometimes thinking positively just means not thinking negatively.

This one is so hard! I’ve actually been working on this one for a little while. A few weeks ago, I asked the question “How do you train yourself to think happy?” (I didn’t get any suggestions, by the way…still open to them!) However, I did come up with one small way I could start thinking happier: giving people the benefit of the doubt. The premise there was that since I can’t control other people’s actions, but I can control my own thoughts, giving people the benefit of the doubt (even if they might not deserve it) only serves to stop me from thinking negative thoughts. And for someone like me, who is not naturally a positive thinker, sometimes the best I can do is to just not think negatively!

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Grattis Pappa!!

March has been a month full of birthdays! Here in New York, Sven and I celebrated our friends Stephanie, James, and Ross’ birthdays. Elsewhere, we’ve given March b-day shoutouts to my cousin Phil, his beautiful daughter Gabby, my friend Erez that I’ve known since high school, and my amazing wedding planner Jill (the latter two whose birthdays are actually today!). There have been so many March birthdays, I’ve probably forgotten to mention a few here, so apologies, but if you’re on Facebook, I probably “remembered.” ;)

Not to mention that three of our parents have March birthdays! My dad’s was on March 6, Sven’s mom’s (and niece’s) were on March 15, and TODAY it’s Sven’s dad’s very special birthday = THE BIG 6-0!!!

Lovingly known as Pappa, Sven and I would like to wish a very happy birthday to the best father (and future father-in-law) one could have!

Pappa, hope your day is filled with lots of love and cold beers! Grattis!!!

Later this week, Sven and I are off to Sweden to meet his family and celebrate his parents’ double BIG 6-0!!! It’s sure to be a great time, and we can’t wait!

 

It’s our EIGHT year anniversary!

Today is what Sven and I call “Honeybears in Love Day” a.k.a. the anniversary of the date we first laid eyes on each other. Not the first day we met (two days later), not the first day we kissed (another two, maybe three days after that), and not the day we decided to be “official” (who knows when?).

We chose this day as our anniversary because we can both vividly remember the first moment we saw each other: I was sitting on the couch with two of my roommates in my apartment in Bangkok. Our friend Anders, who lived upstairs, walked in to ask us what our plans were for the evening. Sven was standing silently next to him. We didn’t get an introduction, and they walked out after two minutes of discussing that night’s party, but not before I wondered who that hottie was that Anders dragged in. When they left, I even remember telling my roommates – Mike and Dan – “Anders’ friend is cuuuute!”

Sven also remembers me sitting there on the couch, (as he says) looking all cute in my glasses and pajamas. Because that was such a memorable moment for us, Honeybears in Love Day was born!

I’ve already posted how we first actually met, and some pictures of our first days together in Thailand, so here I’ll post a picture from every year we’ve been together!

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Know what you want, and stand by it – No matter what

Know what you want, and stand by it, no matter what.

This, according to me (and I am the authority, after all), is the secret to finding the perfect mate. Yesterday, I wrote at length about the first part of this “secret” – knowing what you want. It can be a specific goal or set of criteria, but usually (for me, at least) it’s about trusting your own instincts and understanding what your heart truly wants, which can often get lost and confused amongst all the noise of other people’s opinions and your own insecurities.

Anyway, onto the second part of the “secret” – standing by what you want, no matter what.

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What’s the secret to finding the perfect guy (or girl)?

I’m going to preface this post by saying that the opinions expressed here are solely my opinions based on my own experience, and I am more than happy to hear whether or not you agree or disagree in the comments below!

What’s the secret to finding the right person to be in a relationship with?

The answer is simple. (It always is, isn’t it?) But the execution is what can be painfully, frustratingly, confusingly difficult:

Know what you want, and stand by it, no matter what.

My inspiration for tackling this question actually comes from my own extreme pain, frustration, confusion, and difficulty with trying to figure out what to do with my career. I’m not gonna lie, I do think that my relationship with Sven is pretty perfect :) (not without its hiccups, of course, but that’s why this blog is named the way it is)! So, I wondered…how can I be so together in my personal life, but be so misguided in my career? Can’t I take some of the same principles that have guided me in my relationship and apply them to my career? The answer is yes. But the difference is that, for many reasons, the principles are much easier for me to execute in my relationship than to my career, and I’ll break down these principles here:

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My Top 5 Posts!

When I published yesterday’s post, I didn’t realize that it was my 100th blog post! It wasn’t until later in the day that I noticed that I had exactly 100 posts on my WordPress dashboard. That’s a pretty big milestone isn’t it? I’m going to be unabashedly proud of myself for this, and share my top five most-read posts of all time. And with 100 posts on the site, I bet it’s a good time for you to catch up on your reading!

  1. Friday Dance! Not sure why this one is tops, either people just find this hilarious or it got hit by spammers…
  2. From exotic fling to lifelong thing Documenting Sven’s and my journey from Thailand to New York, and everything in between!
  3. Welcome to my blog! The post that started it all.
  4. Do you expect your partner to be a mindreader? 
  5. What’s your love language?
For those of you that read my blog, thank you for your interest and support!! I love your comments and feedback, so please keep it coming so I can continue to make this blog bigger and better!! :)

Don’t ever lose perspective about the value of a dollar (or krona)

Three weeks ago, I wrote about my ten personal commandments to be a happier, more focused person. I decided I didn’t like the word “commandment” – maybe it sounds too religious or rigid, so instead I’m using the word mantra. Every week for ten weeks, I’m focusing on one of these mantras make sure I stay on track. This week’s mantra is:

Don’t ever lose perspective about the value of a dollar.

There’s improving your standard of living because you’ve grown up and are making “adult” money, and there’s losing perspective about the value of a dollar. I’ll admit that sometimes this distinction gets blurry for me. Sure, I don’t need to stay in $10/night hostels anymore when I go on vacation, but is it absurd to now think that a $250/night hotel room is cheap?

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Ten happy things I look forward to on my wedding day

Hooray, it’s Friday! Finally! This week has been long as hell, but I’m going to finish it on a high note. In keeping with this week’s personal mantra: Fun doesn’t necessarily equate with happiness, I’m going to refocus on what truly makes me happy. You see, the reason I wrote my collection of ten personal mantras was because they’re not easy for me to follow! It’s been a stressful time recently – trying to figure out my career, nagging Sven to get on his wedding planning tasks, a long, vacationless winter – that I’m very much looking forward to two things coming up very soon:

First, it’s the eight year (!!) anniversary of when Sven and I first met, which is next weekend. Sven and I are planning to spend a night in a hotel as a little staycation and go out to a romantic dinner, which we haven’t done in a long time. The following week, we are finally getting away and going to Stockholm to finalize our wedding plans and celebrate Sven’s parents’ 60th birthday. While there’s nothing wrong with having these fun events to look forward to, the point of this week’s mantra is knowing that these events by themselves, while fun, aren’t necessarily going to contribute to my long-term happiness. Sure, it will be fun to celebrate our anniversary, spend time in Stockholm sorting out wedding plans, and hang with Sven’s family, but once we get home, the fun will be over. Wait, I thought I said I was going to end the week on a high note? This sounds depressing!

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Grattis på födelsedagen!!!

[That means happy birthday in Swedish!] Today is a big double birthday to two of my favorite Swedish people:

Sven’s mom, a.k.a Mamma, who turns the big 6-0 today! And…Sven’s little niece Minea who turns THREE years old!

Minea is going to be one of the lovely flower girls at our wedding. She is so sweet and bubbly and an adorable little big girl! I can’t believe how quickly she’s grown up from a chubby little baby to a hip little girl! (Even at three, her sense of style is better than mine!)

Sven’s mom is the best. She may be 60, but she’s young at heart! I love how she’s always open to trying new and exotic foods when she visits (girl knows the way to my heart). She also loves to shop, ride her bike, and play golf. I’d swear she’s only 22!

What’s more, Sven’s dad also turns the big 6-0 in ten days, so we’re going to have a big double 6-0 celebration in Sweden for Sven’s parents in just a couple of weeks. It’s going to be quite the party. Can’t wait to celebrate with them there!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMMA & MINEA! GRATTIS PÅ FÖDELSEDAGEN!!! 

 

Ha en underbar dag! Have a wonderful day! (And that goes for everybody!)

Do you want gold stars?

Whenever Sven’s been what I call “a good Honey,” he loves it when I give him a “gold star.” Um, no we don’t have those packs of gold star stickers that elementary schoolteachers place on A papers, but it’s pretty much the same concept! It’s sort of a literal gold star – I’ll push my thumb down on his chest as if I’m affixing a gold star, and he puffs up with pride. All this just for making the bed!

Okay, so Sven isn’t a show dog, but he is a bit of a “gold star collector.” When he does a household chore, he often wants recognition or credit for it. For example, he likes to point out when he’s loaded the dishwasher, cleaned the bathroom, put away the pile of things he tends to collect over time in his corner of the bedroom, etc…..

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Never underestimate the power of clean

If you know me, you may know that I’m a bit of a neat freak. However, living with Sven sometimes puts a damper on my ultimate cleaning efforts. Not that he’s entirely to blame. Even I get so busy and stressed out sometimes that there are unsightly piles of clothes inside (and outside) my closet, papers and mail collect on our coffee table, and there seems to be a little bit of mess everywhere.

This past weekend, Sven and I had three big birthday parties to go to. Friday night, we went to a nightclub for our friend Ross’ birthday. On Saturday night, we had two big 30′s to attend – my friend Stephanie’s and Sven’s friend James’. Let’s just say the weekend was largely unproductive otherwise and led to us getting up at 3pm on Sunday afternoon. I can’t remember the last time I was eating breakfast at 4pm. Seriously.

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Fun = happiness???

For ten Mondays, I’m starting the week by focusing on one of each of my “ten personal commandments.” 

This week’s commandment is: Fun doesn’t necessarily equate with happiness. 

I don’t want to start the week off by seeming to be such a killjoy! I love fun, and I love happiness! However, around the time I started this blog, I realized that I kept trying to find “happiness” by planning and doing lots of “fun” things: going on vacations, weekend trips, trying new restaurants, partying with friends, taking dance classes…the list could go on and on. And I had been going on like this for years. But I still felt unhappy and unsatisfied with my life far too often.

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A jumbled mess of thoughts – but a focus on the wedding!

If you haven’t yet noticed, I try to keep my blog focused on three main topics: [1] relationships (as pertaining to Sven and me), [2] my experiences in planning a Swedish-American wedding, and [3] Sven’s and my everyday life. Occasionally, I’ll dabble into discussing the in-laws or have a moment of self-reflection, and I’ve recently introduced a new topic I’m exploring that I believe is relevant to the overall theme of this blog – happiness.

Sven makes fun of me all the time for having what he calls a “milkshake brain” – millions of thoughts scattered all over the place, blended together and disorganized. He says it’s why I’m so organized externally – with my spreadsheets and anally-categorized closets and drawers – because I can control those things, but I can’t control my thoughts. That Sven, he really does have everything all figured out, doesn’t he?

This is why this blog has been great for me – it’s an outlet for me to organize my thoughts. Lately, my mind has been more scattered than ever, so I’m going to end this week with a mish-mosh of a little bit of almost everything my blog covers…and then some.
One thing I purposely choose to NOT write about is my job and my career. There are a few reasons for this:

A night of tennis and celebrities!

Earlier this week, Sven, my friend Beth, and I went to the BNP Paribas Showdown, featuring exhibition matches between Maria Sharapova and Caroline Wozniaki, and Roger Federer and Andy Roddick. I’ll admit I’m not the hugest tennis fan in the world, but it was hard to pass up free tickets from one of my vendors at work (thanks UeBiz!). Great seats, great company, and great fun!

Here are some pics from the night:

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Pre-Wedding Beauty Regimen (A girl’s gotta look good!)

Four months to go until Sven and I get hitched! As part of my monthly countdown to our wedding, I’m featuring wedding-related products and/or services that I’ve used leading up to our big day. Any bride will tell you that looking and feeling her best is a top priority, and I am certainly no exception. What other time in your life can you be as unabashedly vain and get away with it?!

Therefore, here are some “reviews” for my pre-wedding beauty regimen thus far!

Facials: I’ve been a loyal customer of Christine Chin Spa for five years. I get their microdermabrasion + facial combo for $300. Christine herself runs for more than double that amount, a steep premium for her time because she’s usually busy primping models. Their microdermabrasion machine uses tiny crushed diamonds to slough away the top layer of dead skin cells. The facialists (trained by Christine herself) meticulously (and painfully) extract seemingly every pore on your face, popping pimples you didn’t even know you had.

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Happy Birthday Dad!

Today would have been my dad’s 72nd birthday. He passed away six years ago after a three-year battle with kidney failure and lung cancer. I think about him almost every day and miss him a lot, and especially wish he was around to see me and Sven get married.

My dad was a huge influence in my life, and a big part of who I am today. I was a total Daddy’s Girl – he was a stay-at-home dad while my mom worked full-time. So it was my dad that drove me to dance classes, picked me up from school, and helped me with my homework. Everyone at school knew my dad’s van – the signature Spacemobile!

When I was a kid, my dad and I were attached at the hip. I wanted to know everything he knew and did everything he did. This wasn’t always the best influence – he was a big beer drinker and smoker – he gave me my first beer when I was 7, and I first tried cigarettes when I was 11 (don’t think he knew that though!). And I definitely have his short, fiery temper. However, for the most part, my dad was a positive influence on my life.

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Monday Mantras

Last week, I wrote a list of my “ten personal mantras” to help guide my life’s focus. I want to keep going back to my ten mantras page whenever I feel down on myself, unconfident, or unhappy. The goal is to gradually change negative habits and thought processes in order to evolve into a happier, more balanced person – and ultimately, a better person, friend, daughter, wife(!).

So every Monday for the next ten weeks, I’m going to start the week by focusing on one mantra to help guide me through the week. Today, it’s:

I must make an effort to be happy, but the effort must be thoughtful and put into the right places.

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I want your feedback!

The bad news is that I spent eight hours on the train yesterday making a same-day round-trip to Boston for work. The good news is that I spent part of that time brainstorming fresh, new ideas for my blog that I’m very excited to share! While I do write this blog primarily for myself, about myself, and my own inspired ideas, no (wo)man is an island – so I would love and appreciate your feedback, especially if you’re a regular reader (and thank you, for that, by the way!)

Are my posts too long? Too frequent? Not frequent enough? Should I start posting on weekends? Any topics you find particularly interesting that I should write more about or elaborate on? What are some of your favorite posts?

Let me know by taking the following poll!

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